Today was eventful. I went to the clinic to get my shot to stop my you-know-what for 3 wonderful months. Then on the way home we went to the drug store to buy "school" supplies. I also bought a few extra things for myself:
For "School":
1 3 ringed binder
1 pack of loose leaf paper
For Me!:
1 pack of blue gel pens
1 pack of playing cards ( yes they sell them in the drug store. )
1 bottle of sprite soda
Also I got a red fuzzy wuzzy bug from the clinic to add to my enormous collection! YAY! :D WAPO GIPO MIMIMI!
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
OMFG!
OMFG! The best thing happened to me today! As I told you before a tutor was coming today and he came today, and he likes bugs! We were talking about them for almost the whole session! Thank the lord! Tomorrow my mom and I are going to the clinic and then coming home we're stopping by the drug store to get some school supplies. Can't wait for tomorrow! I hope everything goes well tomorrow. Until then.
Monday, September 11, 2006
WOW More Events!
What the fuck is going on? All this time my life has been nothing but boring shit and then all of sudden all of these things are happening at once! I could list about 3 right now! And I'll think I'll do so:
1. We didn't go to the clinic because today is 09-11-06, the anniversary of the attack on the World Trade Center. My mom told me that alot of things will be going on and we wouldn't be able to go because of it.
2. Some one from the home instruction unit is coming tomorrow! So we have to go to the clinic the day after tomorrow.
3. Today is the anniversary of 9-11! That's still an event even if it has nothing to do with me!
So, that's what going to happen. Any way I'm glad about it all because it's all good things for a change. If any thing else happens today that's eventful I'll update this post. *Crosses Fingers*
1. We didn't go to the clinic because today is 09-11-06, the anniversary of the attack on the World Trade Center. My mom told me that alot of things will be going on and we wouldn't be able to go because of it.
2. Some one from the home instruction unit is coming tomorrow! So we have to go to the clinic the day after tomorrow.
3. Today is the anniversary of 9-11! That's still an event even if it has nothing to do with me!
So, that's what going to happen. Any way I'm glad about it all because it's all good things for a change. If any thing else happens today that's eventful I'll update this post. *Crosses Fingers*
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Disturbed People
Have you ever been "stalked" online by people you've "met" on some online community? I have, and he won't leave me alone. If you've read some of the comments on some of the post you'll see some one nick named "Nobody" saying things like "You're a freak." and stuff like that. I wish he would stop and leave me alone. Before he found out about my blog he used to send me emails daily regarding a subject and wouldn't stop. So I had to "report" him. Then some how he found out about my blogs here and started posting some really mean things. Some of them were so bad I had to delete them.
You also may have seen some other comments from a person nick named "Berek" he found out about the blog too and started posting here about the subject. He eventually stopped for which I'm grateful for, but when will "Nobody" stop? When will he learn to leave me alone and stop being such an ass hole bitch?! Don't really know but I hope he stops soon, because if he doesn't I'd hate to see what will happen to him..... In my opinion he's the deeply disturbed one not me!
P.S I just found out a few minutes ago that I'm going to the clinic tomorrow for the shot that I told you about that stops my periods for 3 months! :) I'm happy about that, and no it doesn't hurt that much!
You also may have seen some other comments from a person nick named "Berek" he found out about the blog too and started posting here about the subject. He eventually stopped for which I'm grateful for, but when will "Nobody" stop? When will he learn to leave me alone and stop being such an ass hole bitch?! Don't really know but I hope he stops soon, because if he doesn't I'd hate to see what will happen to him..... In my opinion he's the deeply disturbed one not me!
P.S I just found out a few minutes ago that I'm going to the clinic tomorrow for the shot that I told you about that stops my periods for 3 months! :) I'm happy about that, and no it doesn't hurt that much!
Friday, September 08, 2006
The Arch Nemesis List # 2!!!!!!!!!
Well as I promised here is the second Arch Nemesis List! YAY! Well let's start with Satin's Angels that I met from camp shall we?
Camp 2006:
Judine: She made it on to the list at the start of camp! When I first saw her I never really liked her though. It was just something about her that I hated. And then I found out why. I had so many conflicts with her that in almost all of them I wanted to kill my self. Take this one for example: I had a problem with one of my OCD things and I was trying to explain it to her, and during my explanation I had said " I know you think I'm crazy..." then she interrupted me by saying "Hell yeah!" I got up and went outside trying to find something out there to kill my self. And then later on I found out it was a joke! I told her not to joke with me like that. So it's because of that and many other things that she made it on to the list.
Erin: Oooooooooooooh that son of a bitch! She made on to the list this year. Although I never liked her, she made it on the list because she crossed the line this year. It happened during a TS and I was in the program office bathroom because it had no windows. It was a really bad one and I had threw a glass measuring cup that they had in there, ( they shouldn't even have those things in a campers reach ) and it broke. That's when Erin came to the door ( I knew she was going to come, so I had put my feet on the door pushing it in with all my weight so she couldn't get the door open ), saying "Open the door Brittanie." I was, as I told you holding the door shut. I told her "Go away you fucking bitch!" And she continued to push. I think she went and got help from Jenny and some one else because she eventually got the door open. It got worse from there because they had to drag me out of the bathroom and take me outside and put me in B3 ( that's an unused bunk they use for a "time out room" ). Jenny helped so she made on the list too.
Jenny: She made it on the list because she helped Erin during that time, and she was also not understanding me. If you ask me she didn't want to understand me. So that's why she's on here.
The Loony Bin 2006:
Jojo: And no I don't mean the singer! :) She was one of the patients. She made the list when she found out that clucking and popping gum bothers me. That's when she did it non stop. I asked her to stop very nicely loads of times and all she would say was "No. I can do what ever I like." or "It's my mouth I can do what ever I like with it." She also would call me crazy loads of times too.
Jonathin: He is one of the most stupidest boys I've ever met. He too made it on the list for doing the same thing as Jojo, although he didn't say "It's my mouth I can do what ever I like with it." And he's ugly!
Christina: She made it on the list too for the same thing. Also including that she was very mean to me as well.
Amberea: Man she's ugly! She made it on the list for bothering me and treating me like I was some kind of illness. Every time I would talk to her about something she would move away from me and act like I was a giant malaria carrying mosquito. And she got me banned from Art because she started clucking and I flipped out throwing things.
Sue: She's one of the staff that worked there. She made it on the list because she was in my opinion mean to me, she didn't want to understand my problems or anything.
Samantha: She is another one of the staff that worked there. She made it on the list because for one thing she was very strict and I don't like strict people because they really don't understand me and they don't want to understand me. She made it on the list because she was involved in one of my many incidents that I had there and she was really really mean to me.
Pam: When I first met her I liked her but when the other kids there started bothering me and making my OCD worse I starting having alot more incidents at night and she was involved in most of them and in one of them she was really mean and that's how she made on the list.
Mike: That son of a fucking bitch! When I first met him I was a little uncertain with him. And it was a good thing that I was, because I started having alot more incidents at night and he started to get involved and he was being really insensitive just like Ms. Nakashima. So that's why he's on here.
You all go to hell bitches and hoes! I hope you suffer all damnition and let Satin's angels shove pineapples up your ass! Burn in hell!
P.S At 9:oopm I saw a asian lady bug beetle ( Harmonia Axyridis ) crawling on the wall in my mom's room! I let it go just a few minutes ago.
Camp 2006:
Judine: She made it on to the list at the start of camp! When I first saw her I never really liked her though. It was just something about her that I hated. And then I found out why. I had so many conflicts with her that in almost all of them I wanted to kill my self. Take this one for example: I had a problem with one of my OCD things and I was trying to explain it to her, and during my explanation I had said " I know you think I'm crazy..." then she interrupted me by saying "Hell yeah!" I got up and went outside trying to find something out there to kill my self. And then later on I found out it was a joke! I told her not to joke with me like that. So it's because of that and many other things that she made it on to the list.
Erin: Oooooooooooooh that son of a bitch! She made on to the list this year. Although I never liked her, she made it on the list because she crossed the line this year. It happened during a TS and I was in the program office bathroom because it had no windows. It was a really bad one and I had threw a glass measuring cup that they had in there, ( they shouldn't even have those things in a campers reach ) and it broke. That's when Erin came to the door ( I knew she was going to come, so I had put my feet on the door pushing it in with all my weight so she couldn't get the door open ), saying "Open the door Brittanie." I was, as I told you holding the door shut. I told her "Go away you fucking bitch!" And she continued to push. I think she went and got help from Jenny and some one else because she eventually got the door open. It got worse from there because they had to drag me out of the bathroom and take me outside and put me in B3 ( that's an unused bunk they use for a "time out room" ). Jenny helped so she made on the list too.
Jenny: She made it on the list because she helped Erin during that time, and she was also not understanding me. If you ask me she didn't want to understand me. So that's why she's on here.
The Loony Bin 2006:
Jojo: And no I don't mean the singer! :) She was one of the patients. She made the list when she found out that clucking and popping gum bothers me. That's when she did it non stop. I asked her to stop very nicely loads of times and all she would say was "No. I can do what ever I like." or "It's my mouth I can do what ever I like with it." She also would call me crazy loads of times too.
Jonathin: He is one of the most stupidest boys I've ever met. He too made it on the list for doing the same thing as Jojo, although he didn't say "It's my mouth I can do what ever I like with it." And he's ugly!
Christina: She made it on the list too for the same thing. Also including that she was very mean to me as well.
Amberea: Man she's ugly! She made it on the list for bothering me and treating me like I was some kind of illness. Every time I would talk to her about something she would move away from me and act like I was a giant malaria carrying mosquito. And she got me banned from Art because she started clucking and I flipped out throwing things.
Sue: She's one of the staff that worked there. She made it on the list because she was in my opinion mean to me, she didn't want to understand my problems or anything.
Samantha: She is another one of the staff that worked there. She made it on the list because for one thing she was very strict and I don't like strict people because they really don't understand me and they don't want to understand me. She made it on the list because she was involved in one of my many incidents that I had there and she was really really mean to me.
Pam: When I first met her I liked her but when the other kids there started bothering me and making my OCD worse I starting having alot more incidents at night and she was involved in most of them and in one of them she was really mean and that's how she made on the list.
Mike: That son of a fucking bitch! When I first met him I was a little uncertain with him. And it was a good thing that I was, because I started having alot more incidents at night and he started to get involved and he was being really insensitive just like Ms. Nakashima. So that's why he's on here.
You all go to hell bitches and hoes! I hope you suffer all damnition and let Satin's angels shove pineapples up your ass! Burn in hell!
P.S At 9:oopm I saw a asian lady bug beetle ( Harmonia Axyridis ) crawling on the wall in my mom's room! I let it go just a few minutes ago.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Went Out With Kerry!
WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today was AWESOME! I just came back from going out with Kerry and it was awesome! We went to buy cd's and we also went to Central park!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I saw so many insects! Here's a list of them:
2 Hover flies ( 2 different species )
2 cabbage whites
1 house fly
a bunch of flies or wasp near the lake.
1 orb weaver spider in it's web
a bunch of small flying insects
Also I bought 3 cd's! And I love today! Thank you god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
2 Hover flies ( 2 different species )
2 cabbage whites
1 house fly
a bunch of flies or wasp near the lake.
1 orb weaver spider in it's web
a bunch of small flying insects
Also I bought 3 cd's! And I love today! Thank you god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Got My Hair Done!
Today Irene came and she did my hair for tomorrow. Kerry is coming tomorrow! I can't wait to see her. Besides getting my hair done nothing else happened. My mom talked to Kerry this morning while I was sleeping. It wasn't that early though. It was like 8:00am or a little later. Any way just thought you should know. Irene also gave me a butterfly "booklet" from when she went to the Bronx zoo butterfly garden 2 weeks ago. I love it there! I went there more times then you could count! Any way until tomorrow! :)
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
More wonderful Events!
Wow! This is something else. Yesterday I heard from Martine!!!!!!!!!!!!! She was one of my counselors at camp. It was good to hear from her again. And my mom told me that Kerry is going to call sometime today! I'm looking forward to that too. She also told me that she's coming on Thursday. So I was wrong about what day she was coming, but who cares?! I'm going out with her for the day! Whoooooooooooooo hooooooooooooooooooo! :)
Monday, September 04, 2006
Diary Entry: 07-25-06
Well as I said in my 100th post that my diary entries have "returned" here is another one:
Dear Diary,
Today was awesome! I saw another Monarch and a Tiger swallowtail. We had sports for evening activity. It was fun. I also saw the following ( insects ):
Loads of Cabbage whites
1 Monarch
1 chafer beetle
3 Japanese beetles
2 Snout moths
1 Cool looking jumping spider ( I took a picture of it crawling on my hand. )
1 spiny backed spider
2 millipedes
1 tussock moth
1 Tiger Swallowtail
2 Clouded sulphur butterflies
We also had academics I played with blocks and see through marbles. I also made 2 bug ID charts with stickers. Some time ago last night we ( the whole bunk except one camper ) made up with Judine ( the counselor I told you about yesterday ). See my 100th post for more details. We also had a blast attacking the British in the pool. Can't wait for tomorrow! :)
Note: Judine still continued being mean with me even after the whole bunk made up with her. The reason we had to make up was because yesterday I said "You're worst counselor ever!" which is true! So that led to her acting like the "victim" saying things like "Oh, it's okay I know you're sorry." in a sarcastic and dramatic voice after I told her I was sorry about what I said. But that didn't stop it until tomorrow night. After that she started "talking normally" again. But sadly she didn't stop being mean to me.
So after that you'd think I wouldn't add her to the second Arch Nemesis List but you're dead wrong if you thought that!
And now as alot of people know the legend of Australia the croc hunter has left us doing what he loved. He will be missed dearly. I loved him and I will never forget him saying "Crikey! That's a beaut!" I watched Animal planet and every other show he was on every chance I got and I loved them. Australia and all the wildlife programs will never be the same. He made me laugh....he was a sweet and funny person.....I, like him love animals, especially insects and their kin.....My heart goes out to his family and friends......Steve you will live for ever dude! Whooooo hooooooooo! R.I.P
Dear Diary,
Today was awesome! I saw another Monarch and a Tiger swallowtail. We had sports for evening activity. It was fun. I also saw the following ( insects ):
Loads of Cabbage whites
1 Monarch
1 chafer beetle
3 Japanese beetles
2 Snout moths
1 Cool looking jumping spider ( I took a picture of it crawling on my hand. )
1 spiny backed spider
2 millipedes
1 tussock moth
1 Tiger Swallowtail
2 Clouded sulphur butterflies
We also had academics I played with blocks and see through marbles. I also made 2 bug ID charts with stickers. Some time ago last night we ( the whole bunk except one camper ) made up with Judine ( the counselor I told you about yesterday ). See my 100th post for more details. We also had a blast attacking the British in the pool. Can't wait for tomorrow! :)
Note: Judine still continued being mean with me even after the whole bunk made up with her. The reason we had to make up was because yesterday I said "You're worst counselor ever!" which is true! So that led to her acting like the "victim" saying things like "Oh, it's okay I know you're sorry." in a sarcastic and dramatic voice after I told her I was sorry about what I said. But that didn't stop it until tomorrow night. After that she started "talking normally" again. But sadly she didn't stop being mean to me.
So after that you'd think I wouldn't add her to the second Arch Nemesis List but you're dead wrong if you thought that!
And now as alot of people know the legend of Australia the croc hunter has left us doing what he loved. He will be missed dearly. I loved him and I will never forget him saying "Crikey! That's a beaut!" I watched Animal planet and every other show he was on every chance I got and I loved them. Australia and all the wildlife programs will never be the same. He made me laugh....he was a sweet and funny person.....I, like him love animals, especially insects and their kin.....My heart goes out to his family and friends......Steve you will live for ever dude! Whooooo hooooooooo! R.I.P
Sunday, September 03, 2006
2 Events
Well supposedly 2 events are supposed to happen this week. On Tuesday some "inspectors" are coming to look at ( mostly electrical things ) how well my house looks and to see if every thing is working ok. Then after that I think that will be on a Wednesday Kerry is coming to take me out again! YAY! When ever it is I'm looking forward to it. Oh and today was the first day of sunshine! YAY! Let's see anything else happened today? Nope. Ok goodbye! :P
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Lovely Weather ( and yes I'm being sarcastic )!
Well if it rains any more I'm going to scream! The weather thanks to Ernesto ( and who fucking cares if I spelled your name wrong ) is horrible! Nothing but rain and wind. So that's what I have to say. Good Bye!
Yeah, that's right when it's been doing nothing but raining I get fucking cranky. Go back to hell Ernesto!
Yeah, that's right when it's been doing nothing but raining I get fucking cranky. Go back to hell Ernesto!
Friday, September 01, 2006
Dolores Came!
Well, hallelujah! Dolores finally came! She came late though. But at least she came. She talked with my mom for a good while. I wasn't in the room for most of the time because I was in the kitchen eating cheese. I love cheese! :) Dolores also told me and my mom right before she left that she's going to come before or after the end of this month. So let's all cross our fingers, ( *Crosses fingers* ) and hope that she does come. I also got another pen from my mommy! Wonder what tomorrow will be like? My mom's going food shopping tomorrow if it doesn't rain. *Crosses fingers again*
Thursday, August 31, 2006
More Events
I just thought you should know that yesterday Kerry called! She told me that she's taking me out some time next week either on Tuesday or Wednesday! I'm looking forward to seeing her again. I have alot to tell her. Also my mom went to the drug store to pick up my other medicine that keeps my OCD in check. It's been quite a few days that I had without it so I'm happy to have it back ( also this means that NO more issues with you know what will occur ). Also my mom gave me another gel pen.! It's green! YAY! Envy my happiness!
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
MY 100TH POST! :)
IN HONOR OF MY 100TH POST I PRESENT THE INTRODUCTION ON THE SECOND ARCH NEMASIS LIST!
Introduction: As you know I have a list of Satin's Angels on my blog that I have encountered during my life. I have also decided to make another one to host the new list of Satin's Angels that I've met at camp and at the loony bin. And let me tell you I've met alot. The main thing you should know is that this list might differ slightly then the other one. As for now that all you need to know.
And since this is my 100th post I would also like to present the "come back" of my diary entries from camp! Soon to follow these are the ones from when I was at the loony bin. So with out further interruption I present Diary Entry: 07-24-06!:
Dear Diary,
Wow, for the first time ever the day sucked. One of my counselors agreed with me that I was crazy! But just now I found out it was a joke! And a few minutes ago we had a major break down, and then made up. Earlier this morning there was a problem too. If I write about it I'll go nuts. And now for something pleasing, not happy but pleasing. We went on a nature walk with a guy named Lenny. I saw so many butterflies and other insects there.
Loads of cabbage whites, clouded sulphurs, Eastern Tailed Blues, and Dragonflies.
2 ringlet butterflies
1 monarch or viceroy
A bunch of Canada Geese
I also took a picture of a Eastern Tailed Blue butterfly and some geese. I also hope that nothing like this EVER happens again. On a happier note for evening activity we watched the movie The Pink Panther. It was so funny! Hopefully tomorrow will be much better.
Note: The counselor I was talking about in this entry is on the second list! And it's not just because she agreed with me that I was crazy ( the full details of the incident on the second list ) but she was also mean to me. Also what I meant by " I hope that nothing like this EVER happens again." was that I hoped nothing like what happened during the incidents happens again. I just wanted to make that clear. So any way HAPPY 100TH POST DAY!
Introduction: As you know I have a list of Satin's Angels on my blog that I have encountered during my life. I have also decided to make another one to host the new list of Satin's Angels that I've met at camp and at the loony bin. And let me tell you I've met alot. The main thing you should know is that this list might differ slightly then the other one. As for now that all you need to know.
And since this is my 100th post I would also like to present the "come back" of my diary entries from camp! Soon to follow these are the ones from when I was at the loony bin. So with out further interruption I present Diary Entry: 07-24-06!:
Dear Diary,
Wow, for the first time ever the day sucked. One of my counselors agreed with me that I was crazy! But just now I found out it was a joke! And a few minutes ago we had a major break down, and then made up. Earlier this morning there was a problem too. If I write about it I'll go nuts. And now for something pleasing, not happy but pleasing. We went on a nature walk with a guy named Lenny. I saw so many butterflies and other insects there.
Loads of cabbage whites, clouded sulphurs, Eastern Tailed Blues, and Dragonflies.
2 ringlet butterflies
1 monarch or viceroy
A bunch of Canada Geese
I also took a picture of a Eastern Tailed Blue butterfly and some geese. I also hope that nothing like this EVER happens again. On a happier note for evening activity we watched the movie The Pink Panther. It was so funny! Hopefully tomorrow will be much better.
Note: The counselor I was talking about in this entry is on the second list! And it's not just because she agreed with me that I was crazy ( the full details of the incident on the second list ) but she was also mean to me. Also what I meant by " I hope that nothing like this EVER happens again." was that I hoped nothing like what happened during the incidents happens again. I just wanted to make that clear. So any way HAPPY 100TH POST DAY!
Monday, August 28, 2006
More!
So today was supposed to have been eventful because Dolores was suppose to come today but she couldn't so she's coming on Friday. She's suppose to come and check up on me and my mom and find out what's been going on but nothing. Alot has been going with me and due to her "uninvolvement" she doesn't know that I've been in a loony bin for 8 FUCKING DAYS! She also doesn't know about the medicine that knock me out during TS. And she doesn't know the my OCD is much worse due to the fact of being exposed to the same sort of environment like that in the school I used to go to, but it happened in the fucking loony bin! And I have diary entries to PROVE it! So I just thought you should know that. Until Friday!
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Soooooooooo Wanting To.....
I really don't know what to say or what to name this post. Any way I bet you're wondering about my Diary Entries from camp. I'll post the rest when I stop suffering. Right now the weather is so fucking bad! I'm so fucking nervous. So I have to hurry up before something bad happens and I feel like killing my self. So any way bye for now, the diary entries will come just be patient.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Interesting Post That I Think You Should Read
On my other blog I've posted a bunch of questions relating to some of the things that's been going on in my life. I think you should read it. You can comment on them here or on my other blog, but you must know the following:
1. You can only post comments relevant to the questions on my other blog. I won't accept any insults or spam or other comments saying how insane you think I am or I'm a liar or a thief ( you know who you are who post these kind of comments ).
2. If you have any questions about any thing relating to this post, or my life you may ask them as long as they don't contain what's listed above. Thank you for taking the time to read this notice and the questions on my blog. Good day and Good afternoon.
1. You can only post comments relevant to the questions on my other blog. I won't accept any insults or spam or other comments saying how insane you think I am or I'm a liar or a thief ( you know who you are who post these kind of comments ).
2. If you have any questions about any thing relating to this post, or my life you may ask them as long as they don't contain what's listed above. Thank you for taking the time to read this notice and the questions on my blog. Good day and Good afternoon.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Fucking Happiness
Well as you know I have alot going on right now at the moment. Right now my mom is talking to my therapist Dr. Grodberg about what's been going on in the last few days, probably about how I was locked up in a loony bin for 8 FUCKING DAYS! and how so very happy I am to be home and out of there. As for right now I'm fine. I just came out of my wonderful bedroom from sing my heart out about how happy I am right now. I also hope that I will never have to go to the loony bin or any other loony bin ever again in my life. And just now my mom just told me that he's gone on vacation until August the 30th, and I need my fucking meds to kick OCD's fucking ass! Any way my mom gave me a purple gel pen to add to my ever growing collection! YAY! And no you can't have it *sticks tongue out* Mwahahahahahahahahahaha!
Note: This post will be updated if anything else that's interesting happens during the day.
P.S My mom found a lady bug this morning, but it flew away.
Note: This post will be updated if anything else that's interesting happens during the day.
P.S My mom found a lady bug this morning, but it flew away.
Monday, August 21, 2006
I Feel Like....DYING!
As you know I've gone through too much. But why should I tell you my problems? Why should I rant on about my boring sucky full of pain and despair life? It's because I want too. I need to pour my thoughts into some where instead of keeping them inside of me. If you want me to suffer, your wish is already granted, it wasn't granted by some fucking blue genie from Aladdin, it wasn't granted by some Greek myth about three ugly and revolting ladies that decided your fate, and no, I didn't break mirrors or walked on the paths of some stupid fucking black cats either, and that was for you superstitious people. So let us look into why this post is called I Feel Like.....DYING! It's because.... well read the fucking title man! That's what I feel like at this moment....like dying!
Don't ask me why, it's just the way I feel right now. So if you don't see any new post in a good while, like a few months, with no explanation on my "mysterious disappearance" I'm either dead or I've gone on vacation with out telling you. So for now SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GO EAT YOUR OWN SHIT!
Don't ask me why, it's just the way I feel right now. So if you don't see any new post in a good while, like a few months, with no explanation on my "mysterious disappearance" I'm either dead or I've gone on vacation with out telling you. So for now SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GO EAT YOUR OWN SHIT!
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Thoughts
I was just thinking about somethings a few minutes ago. Like what my life would be like if I didn't have all these problems. I've been at Four Winds Hospital ( that's the name of the loony bin ) 5 years ago. I hoped and thought that I would never have to go there again. It was hell in Sunset ( that's the name of the unit I was in ), and it was hell in Lodge ( that's the name of the unit I was in this year ). You won't believe how ridiculous the rules were at Lodge! These are just a few:
1. You're not allowed CD's on the unit. ( This is because some of the kids might snap them in half and used them as weapons. ) Yeah, I can see some crazy kid committing BLOODY MURDER!!!!!!!!!!!! with a broken CD!
2. You're not allowed pens on the unit. ( This is because some crazy kid might stab some one with it. They could stab some one with a pencil too. And guess what? They allow pencils. What the fuck is this about? While you're at it might as well ban crayons too, some one might draw on some one to death.
Any way before I bore you to death that was just some of the things that I didn't like and that were meaningless. You would feel the same way too. One good thing though, a few days after I came to the loony bin an incident came up in art and I was allowed to listen to my walkmen when one of the staff took me back to the unit to avoid any more conflict with the other girls. I wound up keeping it for the rest of the time I was there. Same thing with my CD's that I brought with me, only thing that was the staff kept them in the med room. I was allowed to come to them when I wanted to switch the CD to listen to another one.
And then there were other probblems along the way too. Lots of them. Mostly all of them involved being teased by the other girls ( well most of them ), and having episodes due to the fact of my fucking OCD making me upset during the night, to the point they had to code me! ( More on that later ). Mike who was one of the night staff ( staff that stayed over the night ), was the one that usually coded me on the walkie talkies during incidents and episodes that I'd had that really need to go up the devils ass. In the mean time I got to go and eat food before I die of starvation. NIGHT!
1. You're not allowed CD's on the unit. ( This is because some of the kids might snap them in half and used them as weapons. ) Yeah, I can see some crazy kid committing BLOODY MURDER!!!!!!!!!!!! with a broken CD!
2. You're not allowed pens on the unit. ( This is because some crazy kid might stab some one with it. They could stab some one with a pencil too. And guess what? They allow pencils. What the fuck is this about? While you're at it might as well ban crayons too, some one might draw on some one to death.
Any way before I bore you to death that was just some of the things that I didn't like and that were meaningless. You would feel the same way too. One good thing though, a few days after I came to the loony bin an incident came up in art and I was allowed to listen to my walkmen when one of the staff took me back to the unit to avoid any more conflict with the other girls. I wound up keeping it for the rest of the time I was there. Same thing with my CD's that I brought with me, only thing that was the staff kept them in the med room. I was allowed to come to them when I wanted to switch the CD to listen to another one.
And then there were other probblems along the way too. Lots of them. Mostly all of them involved being teased by the other girls ( well most of them ), and having episodes due to the fact of my fucking OCD making me upset during the night, to the point they had to code me! ( More on that later ). Mike who was one of the night staff ( staff that stayed over the night ), was the one that usually coded me on the walkie talkies during incidents and episodes that I'd had that really need to go up the devils ass. In the mean time I got to go and eat food before I die of starvation. NIGHT!
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