Monday, February 25, 2008

The Devil's Lair


But I did not enjoy my stay. Not one minute of it. Today was insane. The day started out ok and then when my mom called me to take my meds for my fucking, son of a bitch, cunt, jack ass OCD that's when the egg hatched. That's when everything went bye bye.

To make a ridiculously long story short I bring you this:

* I had attempted to drink some Ginger Ale before taking my meds. Some of it went down the wrong way and I choked.
* The glass that I was using dropped from my hand onto the washing machine ( It wasn't broken ).
* I told my mom this and she said "That's ok we have others." So then I asked her "Just like this one?"

And then this convo ensued.

Mom: "Yes."

Me: "Do you know where?"

Mom: "Not at the moment, but I guess I'm such an idiot that I don't know where they are."

**Note: If you read my journal entry from yesterday ( I believe ) then you'll know why the word 'idiot' is in bold.

And then there's yelling and screaming because of what she said.

Me: "I never meant to call you an idiot! It was an accident! IT WAS A FUCKING ACCIDENT!"

And with that I went into my room completely worn out and upset with all of the yelling. I wasn't in my room long before another problem arose: The CFH. So then I got "dressed" and I was going to go downstairs or something to get away from all of this. And my mom said that I can't go out because I'll have no where to go.

And I told her that I didn't care and that I've had enough. So what happened was I would up going out on the balcony instead for a good while.

And when I came back my mom told me that she had called Aileen ( my bbf mom ) to check on me and she did and my mom and her talked for a good while while I had my music on really loud and singing at the top my lungs out of agony. My mom got me cheese and it made me feel better. ^.^
For me cheese is like chocolate. I like both but cheese is my comfort food. Phew! That must be the longest LJ entry I've ever written!

Friday, February 22, 2008

Evil Evening

And the reason why it's evil is because my whole day went well without any problems what so ever ( because of the snow storm ) until the evening.

And that's when the bastards upstairs start their fucking meaningless crap! I want them out!

Thursday, February 21, 2008

What The Hell Is Wrong With Me?!

Something is wrong with me because I'm hot when it's like 0 degrees out! And I don't know why because I don't do anything to make myself hot. As I write this I have the AC on! *Screams in frustration*

I just want to be freaking normal!

P.S I made another CD today. YAY!

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

PT Came

Well the only eventful thing that happened today was the fact that my PT came today and did some exercises with me ( which I thought were stupid ).

Well that's it for this day. Peace out!

Monday, February 18, 2008

A Day Of Hell And Cheese

Today was absolute hell and I have the fucking ass bastards to thank for it! Honestly I want them out of here! They kill me! They really do.

Any way to make a long story short I went through hell for a good while and then I had the sudden thought in my fucked up mind for a craving for cheese. So I went out and got cheese and ate some.

I felt better. Calmer if you put it that way and a tiny bit of happiness inside me.

I'm weird. >.>

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Valentine's Day!

My morning was hectic though. The rest was fine so far. I'll tell you about it in a short list:

*Francis quit because of me.
*She was afraid that I would hurt her during my suffering.

That made me feel......*Wishes she could describe it* This morning was hell upon hearing the news. I'm.....I'm done with living around people......

Good Bye!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

An Early Birthday Present

I got an early birthday present today. It was a library book that was looooooong over due. And I've been meaning to take it back but something always came up in the weeks that I was supposed to go and take it back and they called yesterday saying that I could have it!

I'm so happy! YAY!

Monday, February 11, 2008

A Hectic Morning

This morning was hectic. I should say a bit more then hectic because things got kind of physical between me and my mom over a fucking ass CFH on TV wailing it's worthless ass off......

And Francis heard it all again.

I'm getting tired of this I really am. Honestly one of these days I'm going to end the whole damn thing. The rest of my day was fine without any more problems which I'm thankful for. ^.^(v)

Wednesday, February 06, 2008


Ok so my evening/night was hell because of the prospect of TS happening ( it didn't but still ). I didn't go to sleep until like 5:00AM. And I was up all night worrying my ass off.

I want the weather men to get it good really good the fucking bastards!

Monday, February 04, 2008

A Long Day

I went to the clinic today and we were there way too long. I thought that there was going to be MAJOR problems with the CFH but there wasn't thank you God! I'm worn out and tired of spending so much time in the clinic waiting for them to get the medicine from......

ACROSS THE FUCKING STREET! Because of their ignorant stupid asses we were there longer then we needed to be.

I want them to pay for what they did to us.

Later on after I came home I went to bed because I was soooo fucking tired. I woke up to this really bad dream and I couldn't stop obsessing about it ( Fuck you OCD )! I'm ok now but it was awful.

*Hopes that no more dreams of the sort happen again.*

Friday, February 01, 2008

.....Let Me Die!

♫ On the first day of February Satan gave to me, A day full of hell and shit. ♫

Seriously though today was absolute hell! It seems that January didn't want to leave so quickly. It was raining so naturally I was nervous because of what happened in January.

Any way to make a loooooong story short I had another emotional breakdown and my mom got hurt physically because of it ( it was an accident ) and the HA saw and witnessed all of this as she did with the other problem that I had.

I can't take much more of this.