Today Was A God Send

And today was amazing! I went to the library and then to my local Rite Aid and I was shopping for pens when Selena's I Could Fall In Love came on the radio! OMG! That and the fact that I got an email from Sarah made my day! Thank you God! Oh and I got another boingy:

Isn't it adorable?! ♥

>_>....I'm Freaking Weird

Ok something is definitely wrong with me....I died in my sleep and then I came back......and damn! It's affected my whole day. I told my mom and she told me that it was just a dream but I don't know because everything was black......

.......any way tomorrow I'm going to Library and hopefully I'll get some goodies because I've $13.00! W00T! Pray for me will you? I'm going to the clinic next week and I'm dying to tell my doctor what's been going on ( no not my therapist ).

Peace! I also need it.

Never Again......

.....will I even talk to Evet. Why? Trust me you do not want to know.

Happy Thanksgiving!

But not for me because I ran into more problems with the creatures from hell. And it got so bad it wound up into another episode of me throwing stuff. x_x Consider me dead alright?

Kthnxbye!

Bless My Mom

Well yesterday and today I stayed at my friends house while my mom was in the hospital and yesterday was absolute hell because I was worried sick about her and it was crazy. The whole thing didn't make sense it was like my brain was numb.

She called today and she'll be fine. :D That puts everything at ease. The only thing now is that I miss her! I'm at my place right now. I think sleeping in my own bed tonight will help alot. But it's weird being in the house and not having her here.

Bless her.....she means the world to me. ♥

YAY! The Internet Is Back!

Ok so you've wondered what happened to me.....or not but I'm going to tell you any way because I have to......they told me to......

The internet has been down for 3/2 days and during that time I was absolutely bored out of my ass. I had nothing to do really. It's sad how the internet is the only thing "exciting" in my life atm and when ever it goes for some time I'm absolutely "lifeless".

It's sad. :( Any way 4 days ago I found more boingies including today! YAAAAAAY! And that's it.

Kthnxbye!

Absolute Hell Gone Worse!

How can hell get worse? Well this is how:

Today was absolute hell for me. I don't know wtf is wrong with me. I woke up this morning feeling really weird this morning and it just got worse through out the day. I know alot of it had to do with my OCD because I haven't had my meds in 3 days and it's just been getting worse every single day to today.

Lord kill me....

I think I'm going to loose it eventually.....Even now as I write this I feel weird and drained at the same time and I can't stand existing any more. So by for now.

If I don't post for 5 years it means I've killed myself.

Kerry Called

Kerry called today and my mom and I must've talked with her for about 2 hours. Found out that she's staying in Germany for 2 more years but she'll visit. I don't think I could stand not having her here for 2 more years!

I'll be 17 then! O_O And that's scary for a whole lot of reasons that I'll tell you about some other time. In the mean time night!

Awesome Day

11-9-07: After I left my therapist ( who today truly showed that he's an ass ) I went to the library and returned one of the books I was finished with and renewed the one I wasn't done with and I got a nice big thick one with list of stuff in it for free! YAY! I also went to the 99¢ store and I got more frogs and dice.

And the frogs squeek when you squeeze them! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee! I also went to Rite Aid and I got some really nice sparkly gell pens. And I'm going there again next time I go out with Ileen and Moet.

Wapo Gipo Mi Mi Mi Boingy!

Hooray

Well today I finally got to go to the clinic and thanks to the happy pills my mommy gave me before we left I was "relaxed" and there wasn't many creatures from hell either. Evet came with us. I didn't want her too because I didn't want her to see my flipping out like that if any thing bad happened.

And nothing that bad happened any way so I thankful for that. I got mail from Kerry! YAY! She sent me stones! They're so pretty! ♥

I've Had Enough

You know I'm really pissed off about my OCD. Today I was supposed to go to the clinic but due to me having another breakdown I couldn't. And what made it even worse was the fact that Evet ( My health aid ) witnessed all of the yelling my mom and I did with each other.

And that's all because of me wanting to use a specific garlic powder container that I couldn't find. I can't stand being me any more and I really can't stand having OCD. I want it to end. Tomorrow I'm going to the clinic and I pray to God that there are no problems of any kind what so ever.

I need my happy pills.

Hell Breaks Loose

This morning was hell. It's by far the worst I've had in about a month. It all involved my OCD and some thing else but I can't quite remember exactly what. In fact I believe that the whole thing started earlier in the day when this fucking baby comes on TV and I loose it completely.

I really was out of it. And them later on because of the incident I was drained plus I felt weird and I couldn't sleep so I was on the computer for a bit and that's when I started seeing lines and that's when the next episode starts. My mom and I were yelling and screaming at each other for what seemed like 2 years.

When we made up we were both crying and hugging each other. Now as for today I feel calm, relaxed, and happy. ^_^ And this is due to my mom's idea of giving me my panic pills ( I take them when my nerves go bye bye ) every day. And she gave me some today and alot this morning and I feel awesome!

I ♥ feeling like this. God Bless these pills! Also I found the following:

❀ Selena Dreamin Of You Karaoke ( A new version )

❀ Selena I Could Fall In Love Karaoke ( A new version )

❀ Selena Como La Flor Karaoke ( A new version )

I'm so happy!

YAY! BOINGY!

I found another boingy today. You can read about it here. It made my day. I'm so happy. Plus I also went down to Moet's because my mom wanted to speak to her mom so I went down to get her.

O Sega OCD!

O xemāg ġemwõ đa vexög đag nu OCD ohõ tioñë gi wöjofa na omhema emu weu emwö, Oāpp za ivü gi đa hospital ij hina đoñë zaxeyöha ivog.

Ogāhö wöjofoñë na yöl đa depp!

I can't stand the fact that my OCD is going to drive me insane any day now and I'll be off to the hospital or something because of it. It's driving me up the wall!