18 Hours......

......of sleep. Seriously! I went to sleep yesterday and woke up at 7:00AM today!

I needed because I went through hell on Saturday. Same problem with the people upstairs and it was really bad. Aileen had to come over to take my mom upstairs to talk to them and it all went wrong. They don't live in the apartment we thought they did.

And it's 2 apartments! Not one, but two separate apartments with each containing a pile of shit.

Let's face it. I'm fucking doomed.....

And that about sums it up people!

I Can't Believe It

I went to see my therapist today for the last time because I'm being transfered to another place ( can't remember the name atm ). Getting ready to go was hell because I ran into too many problems with CFH. Also because of what happened last year at camp and the fact that something is going on with the whole thing ( The director is trying to sell it or something and then there's money problems blah blah blah ).........
......I'm not going this year.

I'm going to miss Sara and Jacob ( he gave me my first kiss last year ) immensely. I hope to see both of them again some how someday......I have Sara's email but I don't have any way of contacting Jacob..........How can I be so stupid? Knowing him for 5 years and not asking him for his address or email ( if he has one ).

*Screams* I just hope in some weird way I'll get to see him again.

Shopping! YAY!

I went shopping today and I got more pens, and a really cute photo album with frogs on it. I'll write something with the pens that I bought on the weekend and scan them and post them here. Right now my day ended with the fucking CFH. I swear I can't take much more of this.

I also went to the art store that I think I told you about yesterday. It was heaven to see all the buttons and the like.

Changes

Things are changing and for the good too! ^_^ I'm extremely happy about that. Yesterday I went out and I got 2 Selena CDs:

Selena ¡Vive!

Selena Remembered ( comes with a DVD too )

And I also got more cheese and it was sooooooooooo good. I'm going to get more tomorrow because I'm going out again tomorrow as well. Hahahahahaha! And on Friday I'm going to see my therapist. I know it's been ages since I've wrote in these.

But then again there is my LJ if any of you actually care what happens in my twisted life......

Awesome!

Ok, to get things straight before I explain my day is that we got a new HA because Yvette wasn't all that she seemed to be. You'd be shocked if you knew the whole story from day one.

Any way some one else came to take her place and her name is Francis and OMG! She's a God send! We have so much in common! And this is like a dream almost I can't even tell if it's real! Well I went out with her today and I got the following 2 Selena CD's:

- Selena ¡Vive!
- Selena Remember CD and DVD in one!

And the other things were just some stuff to eat. I'm so very happy. There was just one tiny flaw, I ran into another creature from hell. >:(

Interesting Day

Today was actually kind of interesting because a PT came over today ( totally unexpected ) and did some stuff with me and told me some things and my mom and him talked about my "history" regarding my PT and the reasons why I need it.

I haven't had it in about a year or maybe a little more. Ever since I left school I didn't get it and I've been out of school for over a year now. So......yeah. I also got to have cheese today! *Drools when thinking about it* Like I said I haven't had it in a while.

So it was good to have it. I have some left over of course. Also that dreaded cursed feeling came over me today while the PT was here and the first time it came over me it was really intense and I screamed......

Really I hated the fact that this was happening to me even more because he asked me what was wrong and I "told" him ( actually I told my mom and then explained it to him first ). I just wanna be normal!

Plans

Today I had more problems......so I'm going to make a list of ways to die. I'll get back to you when I'm sure that one of them will succeed.

Hell

I went through absolute hell today involving you know what. Ever since I found out what the whole hearing thing was and the fact they can't stop it etc. It's been 10 times worse.....

I even tried to kill myself today.

*Sigh*

I slept in due to what went on yesterday and I woke up at around 7:00AM and a little later I get the dreaded feeling again. And not only that but it's intense! Also it feels a little different too. But it's the same thing.

What the hell is wrong with me?